My spiritual journey

Yes folks, I´m back again! You may wonder, why is she writing again?  Simple, I have a need to put in words what I am going through right now, what moves me and what I must focus on.  I work for the goverment. It´s a 9-5 job, not well paid, but it comes with certain benefits. Where I work there are mostly women and that structure results in a lot of different problems communicating. Since almost 2 years we are having a lot problems. I don´t really know when it started but it´s a mix of a lot of things: we have a boss who is not a good leader, this person has favourite persons among our group and she does not support us. The result is "informal leaders". Heard about them? You problably have them too where you work.  The work situation has become more and more unpleasent to that point that we could be talking about bullying, some persons of this group choose not to have anything to do with the other part of the group.  Among this "outsiders" or as we call ourself...

Today I was reminded that I don´t value myself enough.  It happened when one of my collegues told me that she has got a new job and she was going to have a higher salary then what she´ll ever make where she is now. Perhaps you think that I got jealous but no, I saw a person who values her knowledge and her ability of what she is capable of. I admire that a lot! It reminded me that I don´t value myself enough and that is something I´m trying to learn.  But there is no trying, like Yoda said: Do or do not. There is no try! Today I got my affirmationcards from Louise Hay. They are just wonderful, beautiful pictures and the affirmations, I just love them. I will now pick a card: I got: I am deeply fulfilled by all that I do! The explanation: Each moment of the day is special to me as I follow my higher instincts and listen to my heart. I am at peace with my world and affairs. Wonderful message! It means that everything I do on a daily basis means something and that I should...

That is something that I have asked myself a lot of times. Am I going to stop being spiritual one day? Not just one day, today is such a non-spiritual day. Very down to earth and very "normal" with kids not helping out even though they were at home all day.  Nevertheless I´m going to continue my adventure of my journey.  I have learned that every person I encounter in my life is a reflection of me. If there is something I like about that person that it is a side of me that I embrace and like. On the other hand there are people who I don´t like and they show a side of me that I don´t want to feel or acknowledge. Every person has a history of her/his own, something to deal with or something they are not able to let go or forget. I have those things aswell but I´m very aware of it what it is that I fear but still can let go yet. I have come across Louise Hay and her book "You can heal your life" which has helped me a lot and the power of affirmations.  Every since...

Okay, I feel inspired (filled with spririt) to begin my writing. I´m not orignally from Sweden. I come from far away where people still have the warmth and they are interested to get to know you. My father was an officer (pilot) and my mom was a stay at home mom. My brother and I are close even though not so long ago we had a quarrel and we didn´t talk to each other for almost a year, but we have talked about it and today we are good. Blood is thicker than water.  When I think back to the time I was a little girl I have always talked to God, even though my parents are not religious at all. They did not even baptise us when we were children. They said then, that we had to decide for ourselfs if we wanted to be baptised when we are grown ups. I was baptised together with my daughter when she was 10 months old. I did it from my own free will. I prayed as a young child but I felt unconfortable because since my parents were not religious at all it seemed strange to pray because I had ...

Here is where I will be talking about my spiritual awakening and progress to become a better person in my eyes.  Through my experiences and challenges I will be talking about my defeted battles or my winning an understanding that there is more to life than meets the eye. I´m a middle aged woman, have two kids, 15 and 12. I live in Sweden, in a small town with aprox 95.000 inhabitants.  It´s a typical  swedish town with both advantages and disadvantages. I´m just glad not be living in the capital.  I live a normal life, well whatever normal is, I have a job, a car, everything I need, an apartment, furnitures, clothes, food,  I have a dog, my companion.  But still there was a time that all was not as well as today. Little by little I´m going to tell my story, how it came that I had an spiritual awakening and I will share my experiences and pardon my english, it´s not what it used to be!!!  I hope that you find my story intresting and maybe, j...