The abscense of value
Today I was reminded that I don´t value myself enough.
It happened when one of my collegues told me that she has got a new job and she was going to have a higher salary then what she´ll ever make where she is now. Perhaps you think that I got jealous but no, I saw a person who values her knowledge and her ability of what she is capable of. I admire that a lot! It reminded me that I don´t value myself enough and that is something I´m trying to learn.
But there is no trying, like Yoda said: Do or do not. There is no try!
Today I got my affirmationcards from Louise Hay. They are just wonderful, beautiful pictures and the affirmations, I just love them.
I will now pick a card: I got: I am deeply fulfilled by all that I do!
The explanation: Each moment of the day is special to me as I follow my higher instincts and listen to my heart. I am at peace with my world and affairs.
Wonderful message! It means that everything I do on a daily basis means something and that I should see the good of what happens everyday. Thank you Universe for bringing this message to me.
I will be attending a gospelconserto where I will be singing with about 500 other singers. It´s going to be amazing and I´m really looking forward to it. Everytime I practice and sing my songs (I sing alto) I feel that there is someone standing on my left side. That person/being/force/light is some kind of assistence or it just likes the music. Music is vibration and my whole body vibrates when I sing. I heard a long time ago that since music is vibration it helps to get into a higher energy and after singing all the songs (takes about one hour) I feel relaxed and I just love the feeling. We are going to sing for 3 days and on the last day is the conserto. I think that angels are going to be there to hear us sing, not because gospel is about God and Jesus, but because in gospel there is joy, not just singing the hymns and the melody is like a funeral. No, singing should be joyfull, and sing with your whole body, and clap your hands and rejoice that you are here right now on this planet, that you can breathe, and walk and feel your heartbeat.
I just remembered something that happened to me about 3 years ago. I was driving my car back home, my daughter was sitting beside me and our dog (miniture schnauzer) was sitting in the backseat, we had just bought her a seatbelt.
It was not that late, about 19.30 but it was winter and it was very dark. I drove along the highway, I was not speeding because I knew that it was very slippery just that day. I was talking to her and we were talking of what we would eat when we get home when I got in a spin from one side to the other just like a whip. I was not able to stop the spin, I lost control of the car and we landed in the trench on the roof. My only thought when we were sliding into the trench was: Now it´s going to happen!
I felt nothing, no pain, no suffering, my life did not pass through my mind, I just let go, whatever it was that I was letting go.
All just happened very fast, there is no time for details, but it feels like you are in slow motion. I know it´s contradictory but I can not explain it any other way.
That year it snowed very much and for once in my life I loved snow! It saved our lifes that day because when we hit the trench we slided on the side and then on the roof. We were upside down. Do you understand how odd that is!!!? The perspective of things change and you get disoriented. People stopped right away and helped us to get out of the car, the engine still running, we didn´t know if it may catch fire. I looked up and there was my dog hanging like a lamp from a roof, I know, but it was funny to look at, I released her from the belt and she ran out of the car.
We sat in someones car and waited for the ambulance, we were shaking because we were in shock. It was a strange feeling, you can not control the shaking even if you want to. We were transported to the hospital where they recomended that we spent the night for observation. My mom came to get our dog and we stayed the night. My daughter had no wounds and I had a lesion on my forehad.
We got home next day and as I took a walk with my dog I suddenly felt for the very first time in my life my heart beating. I have never felt it like that before or after that, but it was something astonishing, I felt for the very first time how it feels taking a breath, how I could walk, how my foot could curve and do that motion that I can walk forward, I have never ever felt that way again, it was as if I was so consious of everything, every heartbeat and every breath that I was sensing life as I never done before! I was in the moment, in the now.
Every moment before that was not living, it was surviving, but after that I now know that I live, that I chose to come to Earth to be here and expirience life and that we are all connected, that everything that happens has a meaning, that nothing happens out for pure luck or coincident, I now know why this happened to me and that it showed something that was forgotten. I thought that before the accident, that I had control of everything but this accident showed me that even though I lost control (of the car) I survived! No one can have total control! If you think you have control than you are so busy having control that you don´t live. There is no place for just being in the moment. I lost control that day, but you know what: I survived!
We are spiritual beings having a human experience not the other way around! Namaste!
(From Louise Hay, Power of thought cards, Hay House, 1999, )
It happened when one of my collegues told me that she has got a new job and she was going to have a higher salary then what she´ll ever make where she is now. Perhaps you think that I got jealous but no, I saw a person who values her knowledge and her ability of what she is capable of. I admire that a lot! It reminded me that I don´t value myself enough and that is something I´m trying to learn.
But there is no trying, like Yoda said: Do or do not. There is no try!
Today I got my affirmationcards from Louise Hay. They are just wonderful, beautiful pictures and the affirmations, I just love them.
I will now pick a card: I got: I am deeply fulfilled by all that I do!
The explanation: Each moment of the day is special to me as I follow my higher instincts and listen to my heart. I am at peace with my world and affairs.
Wonderful message! It means that everything I do on a daily basis means something and that I should see the good of what happens everyday. Thank you Universe for bringing this message to me.
I will be attending a gospelconserto where I will be singing with about 500 other singers. It´s going to be amazing and I´m really looking forward to it. Everytime I practice and sing my songs (I sing alto) I feel that there is someone standing on my left side. That person/being/force/light is some kind of assistence or it just likes the music. Music is vibration and my whole body vibrates when I sing. I heard a long time ago that since music is vibration it helps to get into a higher energy and after singing all the songs (takes about one hour) I feel relaxed and I just love the feeling. We are going to sing for 3 days and on the last day is the conserto. I think that angels are going to be there to hear us sing, not because gospel is about God and Jesus, but because in gospel there is joy, not just singing the hymns and the melody is like a funeral. No, singing should be joyfull, and sing with your whole body, and clap your hands and rejoice that you are here right now on this planet, that you can breathe, and walk and feel your heartbeat.
I just remembered something that happened to me about 3 years ago. I was driving my car back home, my daughter was sitting beside me and our dog (miniture schnauzer) was sitting in the backseat, we had just bought her a seatbelt.
It was not that late, about 19.30 but it was winter and it was very dark. I drove along the highway, I was not speeding because I knew that it was very slippery just that day. I was talking to her and we were talking of what we would eat when we get home when I got in a spin from one side to the other just like a whip. I was not able to stop the spin, I lost control of the car and we landed in the trench on the roof. My only thought when we were sliding into the trench was: Now it´s going to happen!
I felt nothing, no pain, no suffering, my life did not pass through my mind, I just let go, whatever it was that I was letting go.
All just happened very fast, there is no time for details, but it feels like you are in slow motion. I know it´s contradictory but I can not explain it any other way.
That year it snowed very much and for once in my life I loved snow! It saved our lifes that day because when we hit the trench we slided on the side and then on the roof. We were upside down. Do you understand how odd that is!!!? The perspective of things change and you get disoriented. People stopped right away and helped us to get out of the car, the engine still running, we didn´t know if it may catch fire. I looked up and there was my dog hanging like a lamp from a roof, I know, but it was funny to look at, I released her from the belt and she ran out of the car.
We sat in someones car and waited for the ambulance, we were shaking because we were in shock. It was a strange feeling, you can not control the shaking even if you want to. We were transported to the hospital where they recomended that we spent the night for observation. My mom came to get our dog and we stayed the night. My daughter had no wounds and I had a lesion on my forehad.
We got home next day and as I took a walk with my dog I suddenly felt for the very first time in my life my heart beating. I have never felt it like that before or after that, but it was something astonishing, I felt for the very first time how it feels taking a breath, how I could walk, how my foot could curve and do that motion that I can walk forward, I have never ever felt that way again, it was as if I was so consious of everything, every heartbeat and every breath that I was sensing life as I never done before! I was in the moment, in the now.
Every moment before that was not living, it was surviving, but after that I now know that I live, that I chose to come to Earth to be here and expirience life and that we are all connected, that everything that happens has a meaning, that nothing happens out for pure luck or coincident, I now know why this happened to me and that it showed something that was forgotten. I thought that before the accident, that I had control of everything but this accident showed me that even though I lost control (of the car) I survived! No one can have total control! If you think you have control than you are so busy having control that you don´t live. There is no place for just being in the moment. I lost control that day, but you know what: I survived!
We are spiritual beings having a human experience not the other way around! Namaste!
(From Louise Hay, Power of thought cards, Hay House, 1999, )
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