My spiritual journey

I got a sms that said that He was in Berlin. I thought at first that my friend was joking but it turned out that she was not! All my friends got together on skype to talk to each other and we were talking that maybe someone was making it up but it turned out that it did not. One of our friends had talked to him the same day and the first thing he asked was if he knew where I was. He gave me the number and I called. I could not believe it! It was him and he was in Berlin, the city he had left 23 years ago!  I asked him some private questions because I wanted to be sure if it was him. He was! I cried, I laughed, I sang, I was just in heaven. He wanted to see me and I was so unsure, I did not look the same as 23 years ago, I had a much fuller figure and it was hard on my self esteem. But he told me that the only thing he wanted was to hold me because I have been the reason that he is still alive. I did not understand why he said so but he would tell me later.  I told him that I...

The fall of the Berlin wall was an event that I will never forget. I was at home reading when one of my closest friends came and told me that the border to West-Berlin was open and it was allowed for everyone to go wherever they wanted. I did not believe it, I turned the television on and it was on the news. I saw one eastgerman politician talk about that the eastgerman citizen could cross the border. Not long after that He came and we went to the border. Thousand and thousand of people were there, they had bottles of champagne in their hands, laughing, crying, singing, hugging each other, it was amazing! What a feeling! I had visited West-Berlin a lot of times because I was a foreigner and could leave the country when I wanted. So it was nothing new to me but I knew that for my german friend and Him it was something special to walk on the Kudamm and see the beautiful center of West-Berlin. They still had borderpolice and I had my passport but I had no visa for leaving the GDR, I had t...

Today I thought of him a lot and I imagined what it would feel like to have him near. He will be the only man that I truly have loved. I have loved other men but never the way I loved him. Here is our story. I studied in Berlin, Germany between 1988-1996.  There were a lot of students from other countries, exotic countries, lovely people and we had a good time between attending courses, library, studies at home... somehow we managed to have a good time. We had parties, drank a lot, laugh plenty, conversations into the late hours of the morning. Plain and simple : the typical student of that time. I lived in a dorm where I shared room with a girl from Africa. We still have contact. Later came a girl from Russia. It was a wonderful time where I met a lot of people.  One day on one of this parties I met Him. He was a bit taller than me, had a wonderful smile, and liked my accent( how I got my accent is another story). Then I still smoked and it was easy to start a conversat...

Yesterdays entry radiated all through the day, it even showed up as a FB-status from my teacher Dr Wayne Dyer:  You hear people say this all the time: “I have a right to be  upset because of the way I’ve been treated. I have a right to be angry, hurt, depressed, sad, and resentful.” Learning to avoid this kind of thinking is one of my secrets for living a life of inner peace, success, and happiness. Anytime you’re filled with resentment, you’re turning the controls of your emotional life over to others to manipulate. At the root of virtually all spiritual practice is the notion of forgiveness. Think about every single person who has ever harmed you, cheated you, defrauded you, or said unkind things about you. Your experience of them is nothing more that a thought that you carry around with you. These thoughts of resentment, anger, and hatred represent slow, debilitating energies that will disempower you. If you could release them, you would know more peace. You practice for...