A big cry
Tomorrow we are celebrating our 1 month as a couple. It´s been an intresting month where a few things have appeared in front of me, fotgotten feelings and hidden emotions. it´s not that S is to blame in any way, it´s me! I know, klichee, but it´s true. I still have certain problem with my self esteem and that is the problem, not S. But I had a weekend alone, for myself and it finally erupted in an big cry and yelling and screaming in a pillow, I do not want my neighbours to ge scared, and it felt better afterwards. I understood that all this I´m feeling comes from a place that I never want to go again. A place where I thought bad of myself, full of self doubt. But not anymore. All that happens to me happens for a reason and I have created this situation. S has merely been the spark to ignite the fire and I know that he is here to stay. I love him. He is still having problems with his ex wife who does not want to let go, but in the long run she will accept it and ...