My feelings are my responsibility!
Yes folks, I´m back again! You may wonder, why is she writing again?
Simple, I have a need to put in words what I am going through right now, what moves me and what I must focus on.
I work for the goverment. It´s a 9-5 job, not well paid, but it comes with certain benefits. Where I work there are mostly women and that structure results in a lot of different problems communicating. Since almost 2 years we are having a lot problems. I don´t really know when it started but it´s a mix of a lot of things: we have a boss who is not a good leader, this person has favourite persons among our group and she does not support us. The result is "informal leaders". Heard about them? You problably have them too where you work.
The work situation has become more and more unpleasent to that point that we could be talking about bullying, some persons of this group choose not to have anything to do with the other part of the group.
Among this "outsiders" or as we call ourselfs sometimes "the B-team" you can find me there too. How did I get in this group, you may wonder. Very simple, I refuse being part of a "bullyingteam"!
I would never be part of a little group who systematically leave people outside the core or ignore people on purpose. During the fall we have had a lot of conversations with our boss and an expert from the HR department, who should know what she is doing but didn´t.
To make a long story short, we are/were making progress and when one of my collegues said she would quit(see my previous post) things are going much smoother. That was my feeling anyway but today through FB I found out that the little group had an after work and the rest of us were not invited or even informed. This happened once two weeks ago and it happened today.
The first time it happened I decided to just accept the fact that they want to be alone, that everyone has the right to spend time with the persons of their liking on their sparetime. How I reacted then was my way of taking care of my feelings, what I feel is my responsibility, I have to take care of whatever pops up, if it is sadness, or anger.
But finding out today was a lot heavier to bear and to take care of. I have to go in and analize myself, where have I left myself outside? What have I done to situate my person outside the group/community?
What signals have I been projecting about what I feel and think?
I asume that all people have intuition, more or less. I know that it is me who has alienated myself first until it became my reality and the "others" have just showed me what I have done to myself.
As I said before, I don´t blame no one for what is been done to me because they only show me my reality which I have created through my mind, first in my head, as a thought. I then had a feeling, which radiates out to the universe and if you understand anything about the "Law of attraction" you understand that the energy from the thought collects energy from people who have felt the same and then materializes and was shown to me through this trio.
What I should feel is gratitude towards them and writing it down, and feeling that my heart is well and that I have to stop putting myself outside the core, is very helpful.
So good people, think again, if someone does something to you and you re-act to what has been done, ask yourself why? And be true to yourself, be honest to you, if you lie you will know, you can not lie to yourself, because deep inside you know the truth!
The truth will set you free! once a profet said that went by the name of Jesus, and he was right.
Namaste!
Simple, I have a need to put in words what I am going through right now, what moves me and what I must focus on.
I work for the goverment. It´s a 9-5 job, not well paid, but it comes with certain benefits. Where I work there are mostly women and that structure results in a lot of different problems communicating. Since almost 2 years we are having a lot problems. I don´t really know when it started but it´s a mix of a lot of things: we have a boss who is not a good leader, this person has favourite persons among our group and she does not support us. The result is "informal leaders". Heard about them? You problably have them too where you work.
The work situation has become more and more unpleasent to that point that we could be talking about bullying, some persons of this group choose not to have anything to do with the other part of the group.
Among this "outsiders" or as we call ourselfs sometimes "the B-team" you can find me there too. How did I get in this group, you may wonder. Very simple, I refuse being part of a "bullyingteam"!
I would never be part of a little group who systematically leave people outside the core or ignore people on purpose. During the fall we have had a lot of conversations with our boss and an expert from the HR department, who should know what she is doing but didn´t.
To make a long story short, we are/were making progress and when one of my collegues said she would quit(see my previous post) things are going much smoother. That was my feeling anyway but today through FB I found out that the little group had an after work and the rest of us were not invited or even informed. This happened once two weeks ago and it happened today.
The first time it happened I decided to just accept the fact that they want to be alone, that everyone has the right to spend time with the persons of their liking on their sparetime. How I reacted then was my way of taking care of my feelings, what I feel is my responsibility, I have to take care of whatever pops up, if it is sadness, or anger.
But finding out today was a lot heavier to bear and to take care of. I have to go in and analize myself, where have I left myself outside? What have I done to situate my person outside the group/community?
What signals have I been projecting about what I feel and think?
I asume that all people have intuition, more or less. I know that it is me who has alienated myself first until it became my reality and the "others" have just showed me what I have done to myself.
As I said before, I don´t blame no one for what is been done to me because they only show me my reality which I have created through my mind, first in my head, as a thought. I then had a feeling, which radiates out to the universe and if you understand anything about the "Law of attraction" you understand that the energy from the thought collects energy from people who have felt the same and then materializes and was shown to me through this trio.
What I should feel is gratitude towards them and writing it down, and feeling that my heart is well and that I have to stop putting myself outside the core, is very helpful.
So good people, think again, if someone does something to you and you re-act to what has been done, ask yourself why? And be true to yourself, be honest to you, if you lie you will know, you can not lie to yourself, because deep inside you know the truth!
The truth will set you free! once a profet said that went by the name of Jesus, and he was right.
Namaste!
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