Reality is stranger than fiction part 2

I´ve been very busy the last months, work, rehab, work-out, worries, vacations and now from tomorrow I will be going to Växjö to study law. It´s part of my new job for my employer and is fully paid by them, flights, taxis, hotels, meals... I just have to show up!
I promised a second part of what happened with S and his ex wife and here it is:
I had  bought at book for S because I knew he was interested in history, I send it so he got it on Christmas day or so.
I got a couple of days later a new message from his ex wife: 

 "Incredible! Just sad! Should I put and end to the relationship to S? We come home after a nice christmas weekend and you send a book to S. even though he says that you have no contact at all and over again that there has never been a relationship between you. He says that you do not understand that. I think that he has not been sincire to you too. He has either not been explicit to you or he is not truthful to me. It is not okay! I do not understand if he wants me back there can not be lies between us."

 I wrote to S telling him that she has written again and what she said. He was polite in his message and he just wrote that whatever respect he has for her is now gone and he was now very specific that he did not want any contact with me anymore and he hoped that from no on our paths go in different directions.
I was sadden by his message but at the same time I was able to understand that he was not able to let her go, he is not finished with her, he is afraid of her and the reality is that he will always have her on his back until he detaches from her, but that is something that he has to do on his own, I would not have part of this because he has to do this on his own.
Ever since that day I have no contact with him and he removed me from his friendslist from FB... so sort of saying I will not be concernd with you anymore. And so has it been since then. I do not know anything about him, if he is single or if he is with her, if he is okay or not, I could not care less but I will always love him. I have only loved 2 men in my life, and he is number 2 and I´m grateful for have been able to love and still go on and await the next person to walk into my life. 
I still think of him, one year ago this time I was so very much in love and I loved being in his arms but I have moved on, I erased all his pictures and yesterday I through his toothbrush away. Now there are only the memories and the experiences left and it is okay!
I always felt with him that we have been together in earlier lives and we will be again when we meet again in another sphrere, another lifetime.

 Namaste!

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