"Stay with me ´cause you are all I need"
Another month has passed, we are now celbrating 2 months together, but we are not going to celebrate that. I don´t think that he remembers that it´s 2 months today. In this 2 months we´ve expirienced sadness, secrets, joy, love, sex, disappointment... well the whole facet of feelings...
The most upsetting for me is though that he has not told his children about me, I mean the small children, and I think that in the long run it will be more difficult to explain why he did not tell them in the first place. I did tell him that the most important thing is that his children know, not his ex-wife. His ex still wants him back but he does not want to return.
However, the situation is not the best but I accept it for now.
The good thing though is that we love each other, and that is the main thing!
I can sit in front of him and just look into his eyes and just look at him, doing nothing more than that, not talking or anything, just look into his blue beautiful eyes. He does the same, he looks at me and just says nothing, I´m not expecting him to say anything, it´s a non-verbal conversation or connection. I have never felt this before in my life, not even with my first great love, that I wrote before, but this time it´s different, not necessarily boring, it´s almost being in a trance. It´s as if we had a life together before this one and know we connect on a different level, we don´t have to speak, we feel the other.
He says so often that he can relax so much in my presence that he falls asleep, not because I´m boring, but he can be himself with me. He does not have to pretend to be someone he is not, he shows me the real S. We went to a museum last weekend and I wanted to leave him alone to go around seeing the object that he was looking forward seeing for months. I told him, here is it, but he held my hand and did not let go. It was almost that he wanted me to share this moment with him. He was looking and was watching at the object but still looking where I was heading. He held me and kissed me in front of all of these people and we did not mind showing what we feel for each other.
Afterwards we were at my brothers and having dinner with him and me friend, she took a picture of us and you can see how happy he is, he held my hand all night and we went home late at night.
He gets messages from his ex-wife all the time but he does not respond to them, what I know... This night we went to bed and we fell asleep in each others arms. It was so romantic and it was so relaxing.
The next morning I went up and bought breakfast and we had breakfast together, my children sat with us. It was a nice and not forced conversation. I felt that he wished that his children were there with us. We then went back to the museum where we had more time and there were not so many people.
We than sat down and had a coffee. The museum closed and we sat a while in the car. We just sat there and looked into each others eyes, not saying anything, I patted his cheek and just at that moment a song played on the radio. It was Sam Smiths "Stay with me". the he said " all feels so right with you" I was very touched. We kissed and I said that I love him! He said it back!
It was very romantic! I love S! So much!
Namaste!
https://youtu.be/pB-5XG-DbAA
The most upsetting for me is though that he has not told his children about me, I mean the small children, and I think that in the long run it will be more difficult to explain why he did not tell them in the first place. I did tell him that the most important thing is that his children know, not his ex-wife. His ex still wants him back but he does not want to return.
However, the situation is not the best but I accept it for now.
The good thing though is that we love each other, and that is the main thing!
I can sit in front of him and just look into his eyes and just look at him, doing nothing more than that, not talking or anything, just look into his blue beautiful eyes. He does the same, he looks at me and just says nothing, I´m not expecting him to say anything, it´s a non-verbal conversation or connection. I have never felt this before in my life, not even with my first great love, that I wrote before, but this time it´s different, not necessarily boring, it´s almost being in a trance. It´s as if we had a life together before this one and know we connect on a different level, we don´t have to speak, we feel the other.
He says so often that he can relax so much in my presence that he falls asleep, not because I´m boring, but he can be himself with me. He does not have to pretend to be someone he is not, he shows me the real S. We went to a museum last weekend and I wanted to leave him alone to go around seeing the object that he was looking forward seeing for months. I told him, here is it, but he held my hand and did not let go. It was almost that he wanted me to share this moment with him. He was looking and was watching at the object but still looking where I was heading. He held me and kissed me in front of all of these people and we did not mind showing what we feel for each other.
Afterwards we were at my brothers and having dinner with him and me friend, she took a picture of us and you can see how happy he is, he held my hand all night and we went home late at night.
He gets messages from his ex-wife all the time but he does not respond to them, what I know... This night we went to bed and we fell asleep in each others arms. It was so romantic and it was so relaxing.
The next morning I went up and bought breakfast and we had breakfast together, my children sat with us. It was a nice and not forced conversation. I felt that he wished that his children were there with us. We then went back to the museum where we had more time and there were not so many people.
We than sat down and had a coffee. The museum closed and we sat a while in the car. We just sat there and looked into each others eyes, not saying anything, I patted his cheek and just at that moment a song played on the radio. It was Sam Smiths "Stay with me". the he said " all feels so right with you" I was very touched. We kissed and I said that I love him! He said it back!
It was very romantic! I love S! So much!
Namaste!
https://youtu.be/pB-5XG-DbAA
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