Love enters again
It´s been a roller-coaster, this last month. Something wonderful has happened.
In June we had a reunion, it was 30 years ago that I graduated high school and my friend and I thought about it and managed to get a gathering where the class would be together again after 30 years. We set the date and we planned and the day came. We met in Stockholm in fashionable Söder, and it was very pleasant to see each other again. We were only 6 out of 15 but it was a nice gathering. We had only 2 boys in our class K and S, S had not arrived yet so we sat down to order. He came a little late and everybody gave him a hug. He told me later that when he saw me it was just a feeling that he got, a gut feeling, a good feeling. We were seated next to each other and he talked about his life the last 30 years, about life and even death, he had suffered a heart attack a few years ago. I had been in love with him since high school but I never thought that he would be intrested in me. I noticed that he looked a little bit too often at me but never thought more of it. The days went by and I was still thinking about my friends from back then.
One day I got a letter from S over FB and he asked me out. I was surprised because never thought that he could be intrested in me. One day he came and met my family, we went for a coffee and I told him that I´ve been in love with him then. He was surprised to know because he never suspected anything. Of course not, I would never have said anything to him ever but this was 30 years ago. He went home and we saw each other again two weeks later. He came and we had picnic at our local park and while he was preparing everything he came near and took me in his arms and kissed me. After the first kiss he said that he wanted to do that since our first meeting there at the reunion. I was very touched and surprised and I told him that I could not believe that HE had kissed me, the guy I was in love with all those years ago. I was happy!!!
We spent the whole day together on a blanket where we held each other and we began to get to know each other in a different way, it was a wonderful day. He went home but a very extensive conversation through texting and calling began. We were falling in love. I still don´t know when it began but we miss each other so much that it hurts, it hurts in the body. We had talked about that we would wait for having sex, so we could get to know each other better. One day he wrote late at night that he longed for me to be with him and I don´t know what grabbed me, I took my car and went the 150 km to be with him. We kissed and hugged and we did not want to let go of each other. One thing led to another and we made love and it was wonderful. He was the perfect gentleman and soft and sensitive and full of caresses that still get me excited when I think about it!
I left for work in the morning and he went to work. I was feeling very happy all the way home, and all the next days. He sent me flowers a week later because I´m having problems with my hands. He called me the next day and told me if we could meet at the larger city so it would be halfway for both of us. Of course I wanted to meet him, I began putting on my make up and 10 minutes later he called again and told me that he could come and that he could sleep over. He came and we went to my brothers apartment and we made love again. Once again it was wonderful, he is very gentle and I realized that I love him. It was not difficult to say it, but I have not said it out loud yet. We went home and sleept together in my bed. My children were not surprised that S would sleep with me. It was natural for them. Before he went to sleep he said that he was falling in love with me. This is like a fairytale but in every fairytale there is witch and in my fairytale there is one too. She is the ex wife. They were divorced this year but were separated more than a year ago. She cheated on him with their next door neighbour and when he found out he got so furious that he almost hited the neighbour who also happened to be his best friend. All ended in a divorce but now she wants him back. He told her that he is not coming back but she is having a hard time with that. I hope that he will get pass this ordeal and that we can officially tell everybody that we are a couple. He says that he is longing to tell everybody that we are having a relationship. His brother, mother and oldest daughter knows about me, and all of his co-workers! His mother saw a picture of me and she wants to meet me!
S is easy to love and I told him that I fell in love with him 30 years ago and it was easy to find this feeling again and to feel that I love him was easy and not attached how long time has passes since we started dating but I really feel that feeling of love. He is more cautious he wrote me yesterday:
My love; I`ve been exausted but so happy today. Everybody says that I´m not longer grumpy and that I smile a lot more. To my nerd label has been added a dork label for sending you flowers. Everybody knows about my wonderful girlfriend.
I miss you so much. I´m so close to say the 3 words but I told myself to wait until we know each other better even though I´m very close of saying it. I feel so good in your precence and you are so fine, so fine.
I don´t need to hide what I feel so I told him yesterday that I love him, and I really do.
I don´t know where this journey is going to get me but I hope that this is going to be it.
I´m in love!!!
These are the flowers he send me!
Namaste!
In June we had a reunion, it was 30 years ago that I graduated high school and my friend and I thought about it and managed to get a gathering where the class would be together again after 30 years. We set the date and we planned and the day came. We met in Stockholm in fashionable Söder, and it was very pleasant to see each other again. We were only 6 out of 15 but it was a nice gathering. We had only 2 boys in our class K and S, S had not arrived yet so we sat down to order. He came a little late and everybody gave him a hug. He told me later that when he saw me it was just a feeling that he got, a gut feeling, a good feeling. We were seated next to each other and he talked about his life the last 30 years, about life and even death, he had suffered a heart attack a few years ago. I had been in love with him since high school but I never thought that he would be intrested in me. I noticed that he looked a little bit too often at me but never thought more of it. The days went by and I was still thinking about my friends from back then.
One day I got a letter from S over FB and he asked me out. I was surprised because never thought that he could be intrested in me. One day he came and met my family, we went for a coffee and I told him that I´ve been in love with him then. He was surprised to know because he never suspected anything. Of course not, I would never have said anything to him ever but this was 30 years ago. He went home and we saw each other again two weeks later. He came and we had picnic at our local park and while he was preparing everything he came near and took me in his arms and kissed me. After the first kiss he said that he wanted to do that since our first meeting there at the reunion. I was very touched and surprised and I told him that I could not believe that HE had kissed me, the guy I was in love with all those years ago. I was happy!!!
We spent the whole day together on a blanket where we held each other and we began to get to know each other in a different way, it was a wonderful day. He went home but a very extensive conversation through texting and calling began. We were falling in love. I still don´t know when it began but we miss each other so much that it hurts, it hurts in the body. We had talked about that we would wait for having sex, so we could get to know each other better. One day he wrote late at night that he longed for me to be with him and I don´t know what grabbed me, I took my car and went the 150 km to be with him. We kissed and hugged and we did not want to let go of each other. One thing led to another and we made love and it was wonderful. He was the perfect gentleman and soft and sensitive and full of caresses that still get me excited when I think about it!
I left for work in the morning and he went to work. I was feeling very happy all the way home, and all the next days. He sent me flowers a week later because I´m having problems with my hands. He called me the next day and told me if we could meet at the larger city so it would be halfway for both of us. Of course I wanted to meet him, I began putting on my make up and 10 minutes later he called again and told me that he could come and that he could sleep over. He came and we went to my brothers apartment and we made love again. Once again it was wonderful, he is very gentle and I realized that I love him. It was not difficult to say it, but I have not said it out loud yet. We went home and sleept together in my bed. My children were not surprised that S would sleep with me. It was natural for them. Before he went to sleep he said that he was falling in love with me. This is like a fairytale but in every fairytale there is witch and in my fairytale there is one too. She is the ex wife. They were divorced this year but were separated more than a year ago. She cheated on him with their next door neighbour and when he found out he got so furious that he almost hited the neighbour who also happened to be his best friend. All ended in a divorce but now she wants him back. He told her that he is not coming back but she is having a hard time with that. I hope that he will get pass this ordeal and that we can officially tell everybody that we are a couple. He says that he is longing to tell everybody that we are having a relationship. His brother, mother and oldest daughter knows about me, and all of his co-workers! His mother saw a picture of me and she wants to meet me!
S is easy to love and I told him that I fell in love with him 30 years ago and it was easy to find this feeling again and to feel that I love him was easy and not attached how long time has passes since we started dating but I really feel that feeling of love. He is more cautious he wrote me yesterday:
My love; I`ve been exausted but so happy today. Everybody says that I´m not longer grumpy and that I smile a lot more. To my nerd label has been added a dork label for sending you flowers. Everybody knows about my wonderful girlfriend.
I miss you so much. I´m so close to say the 3 words but I told myself to wait until we know each other better even though I´m very close of saying it. I feel so good in your precence and you are so fine, so fine.
I don´t need to hide what I feel so I told him yesterday that I love him, and I really do.
I don´t know where this journey is going to get me but I hope that this is going to be it.
I´m in love!!!
Namaste!
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