Forgotten feelings?! Can you really forget?

The last months I have been feeling new or better old feelings that are rising again, feelings I have not been feeling for a very long time. It´s not that I have forgotten about them but I have not felt them for so long and the person who has helped me to feel them again is a young man E. 
E is 20 years younger than me and he is working with me since last year. The last couple of months we have been drawn to each other but not on a sexual level but more on an intellectual level. We have fun talking and the fact that some people at my working place are bullies, it´s natural that we are drawn to each other, I don´t talk about those people behind their back and I just ignore them. We eat lunch together and have always something to talk about when it concerns life.

 He had surgery on a part of his body and it´s not getting better so he is quite nervous and a little bit down because it´s not getting better and he might can not go back to his studies.
We talk a lot about everything and laugh a lot, we understand each other just by looking to each other, he is just a wonderful young man. 

 The last month I have discovered that I think about him too much, and I know that when you think about someone than the other person is thinking about you too, so it could be that he thinks about me too but I have a hard time even think in those tracks because  
 I´m old enough to be his mother.

I can not even think about kissing him and how it would feel but he has helped me to feel again and for that I´m thankful, I have not felt that for a long time, to be glad to have someone who means something to you, to have that person near, and I like that feeling but I can not imagine to be involved with him, he just makes me feel good. 

 I needed to tell someone so you who reads this is going to be my complice in this somewhat "forbidden" liason but you know I´m having a hard time to let go of  the idea of conventional relationships where you have to be somewhat the same age. 

 But I´m glad for this new found feelings that I thought where in the past.

 Namaste!
Artwork taken from the Archangel Power Tarot Cards, The Lovers, artist: Jeff Bedrick

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