A fathers love

Hi! I know, it has been a while since I wrote something here but I had no patience this past months.
Today it´s my sons birthday. He turns 14! Has it been that long since he was born?? 
Yes, time flies and too fast it seems!

 In January my father passed away. My brother and I decided that we had to go and hoped that we would be there on time and we did.
My brother helped very much with his knowledge about cancer and treatments and pain relief and I´m sure that my father loves him and is thankful for the things he did. 
My brother left two days before my father decided that it was time to leave this incarnation, I was not there but I think that he did not want me there when it was time for his transition. It was time to go and he decided that it was time.

 I saw my fathers body and it was not frightning or anything, he was my father and what made him my father was gone, only his body was left. 
The next day was his funeral and he got all his honours and fanfare, and they gave me the flag. It was emotional and sad at the same time.
I only wish that when he was in life that he would have been different but he decided long before that he needed to do some things in order to grow spiritually and that I needed the lesson of finding myself to learn and grow aswell.
I thank him and I know that wherever he is he is watching over us and his grandchildren. He helped me to find my keys the other day!!!

 My weightloss is going great, and loosing my hair is not that great but it has stopped now! I feel like a new person, what a feeling to not have palpitations and to move and walk with such an ease.

 My work is very intresting right now, I work for the union and I´m learning a lot of things, it is a personal grow.

 Have a nice day!

 Namaste!

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