The top five regrets of the dying

I had a dream today where a friend of mine who I have not have contact with for almost 3 years came into my dream and showed me photos. It was photos from the love of my life and other fun/beautiful stuff. I really don´t know now why we stopped seeing each other, but whatever reason I don´t care today and I wrote her a letter a few moments ago and I told her that I love her. And it´s really so. I love her! She is kind and fun to be with, she speaks about intresting stuff like spirituality so we have a lot in common. 
I remembered the article of a woman who worked as a nurse in a pallitative home. The 5 top things people regret the most are: 
1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.

 2. I wish I hadn't worked so hard.

 3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.

 4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

 5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.

 I remembered that today and I think that the dream has 

 helped me to think about our friendship and I remenbered 

 that she is also a part of me.Perhaps she has been a part 

 that I don´t want to meet because it´s to painful or to much 

 work.

 I will now wait and see what she feels, if she feels the same 

 than she will answer the letter and will start a new and if not 

 then she is not capable to  forgive and in the long run she is 

 then not capable to forgive herself. I forgive me and her for 

 being so stubborn of who makes the first move. I did it but I 

 did it because I need to heal the wounds I have inside of me.

 Namaste!














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